Purgatory: Senior Year - Chapter 35

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This chapter has been beta'd by the ever amazing: Strae


"Edward," she gasped. "What are you doing?"

I chuckled as she tried to push me off of her. "I'm resting, Bella." I pushed my head into her chest, directly between her breasts so I could rub my face into them.

"Do you have to do it on top of me?" she asked, her voice high with nervousness.

We were moving into an apartment in Seattle. My things were all here already. My parents and I had moved them during the weekend when Bella was at her final weekend shift at Newton's. Good riddance! I rode up with Emmett with a load of Bella's things and Charlie rode up with Bella and another load. Emmett and Charlie would be riding home together, which left the Volvo here for us, and scared me shitless. I paid Emmett off to keep his mouth shut to Charlie, but I didn't know if it was going to work.

Both Bella and I had been accepted to the University of Washington, by some miraculous wonder. She had the grades, she was brilliant, and she was granted a full-ride scholarship, accepted without question. I was surprised to get my acceptance letter before her, short hours but still before her. My dad didn't even have to bribe anyone.

Oddly enough, U of W was where Bella wanted to go. It was a good school and close to home. She repeatedly said she didn't care, but I noticed the way she would glance at the brochures while telling me about other college options. I didn't fail to notice that she filled out the U of W application first either. I'd heard her scream from inside the house when she'd went to get the mail that day.

I remember running outside, looking for blood and internal organs. All that was there was my Bella kneeling on the wet grass with a piece of paper held in front of her like she was praying to it.

"Jesus Christ," I growled, "you nearly gave me a fucking heart attack."

She didn't even hear me. Her eyes were darting from left to right as she read the letter, back and forth they went and her mouth kept repeating the same words quietly, "You've been accepted to join the University of Washington." Over and over she muttered those words to herself.

Then her eyes flashed up towards the door. "Edward, you're not going to believe it," she called towards the house.

I chuckled at her obliviousness. "Right here, love," I stated, stepping into her immediate line of sight.

She looked like she might fall down again as she tried to stand, but she was all power when she finally rose to her feet. She ran at me and I braced for the impact. She threw herself into my arms and I caught her. Her arms wove tightly around my neck and her legs came to cinch around my waist.

"I got in, Edward. University of Washington. I'm going to be a Husky. Scholarship. Love you. Got in." Between each sentence, she was planting kisses on my face.

I kissed her hard on the lips once with a chuckle. "That's fantastic. I got my acceptance letter this afternoon."

She pulled back from me so fast I had to take a step to re-balance us. "What?" she asked. "Why-why didn't you tell me?" she stuttered.

I half smiled at her. "I figured yours would come today too." I shrugged my shoulders. "Your excitement definitely trumps mine."

Despite her scowl, she made sounds of utter happiness. "Oh God," she gasped, pressing her lips to mine forcefully. "Oh my God," she gasped louder yet when she pulled away. Her wide eyes held mine. "We're going to college."

Her lips crushed to mine with more force than I'd been greeted to in a long time. I willingly took her tongue in my mouth and grunted as she pulled my hair. I blindly started carrying her into the house, never putting distance between our lips. She moaned into my mouth as I pressed her into the hallway wall and ground against her. I breathlessly moved my lips to her throat and my ears were greeted to her breathless moans and pants while she tried to claw my shirt off, which didn't work in this position. I carried her to the couch and pushed her into it.

"If I'd have known how excited you got over acceptance letters, I'd have been forging them and sending them to you for months," I joked while I tossed my shirt to the floor.

"Shut up, Edward," she begged, pulling me back into her arms and to her lips.

My memory was broken by real life Bella squirming beneath me. "What are you thinking about?" she asked accusingly.

I smirked, rubbing my erection against her. "The night you got your acceptance letter."

I watched her eyes glaze over as she thought back to that night. Neither of us would be forgetting it anytime soon. It had been… monumental. I still couldn't remember whether I'd shut the front door completely, neither of us had any idea what time it had been, and we had sex in the Swan house. We broke our one rule. Chief Swan had come home only fifteen minutes after we'd finished putting our clothes back on, and he was carrying the mail, inquiring about why it had been laying in the front lawn. Bella told him the good news, and Alice had come in wondering what all the squealing was about. When both of them started squealing together, I thought my head was going to explode, but I couldn't stop smiling at Bella's excitement.

"I still can't believe Charlie bought your lie," I said, rolling my eyes. "Your hair, to this day, has never been so sexed as that night." I snorted. "'I was so excited I was pulling it,'" I recounted her lie. I pushed my face back between her breasts, shaking it back and forth, laughing at the fact that Charlie had bought it.

She smacked my shoulder. "Shut up, Edward!"

I think the second those words escaped her lips, she'd regretted them. I pushed my erection into her hard and she bit her lip to muffle a moan. I could hear feet outside of our door but I didn't care. Even when our door opened, I didn't move my lusty stare from her eyes or cease the rocking motion of my hips.

"Oooh, can I join?" Emmett asked excitedly.

"No," I growled. I leaned down and started licked and biting at Bella's collarbones.

"Edward," she gasped, probably because I was dry humping her and making out with her collarbones right in front of Emmett. I hoped it was actually because she was enjoying it.

"Shut the door," I snarled at Emmett, not turning my head in his direction what so ever.

I heard the door click closed. I moved my lips to Bella's shirt and bra-covered breast and bit down on her nipple while my hands spread her legs around my hips. "Edward," she said sharply, "you do realize he's still standing there."

I looked up and sure enough, Emmett was standing there with a cocky smile on his face. I glared. He just shrugged. "You told me to shut the door, man, you never said get out."

"Fuck me," I groaned.

"See, Bells, what did I tell you? He's always begging me," I heard Emmett say to her. I rolled off of Bella onto my back next to her. "Hey Edward?" he asked.

"What?" I snapped at him.

"Quit popping tents and get your ass downstairs to get the rest of the fucking boxes." I heard the door open and Emmett's heavy weight disappeared from the apartment. I chanced a look downwards and rolled my eyes at my very obvious erection.

When I heard footsteps outside the apartment again, I rolled off the bed onto the floor, knowing it wasn't Emmett this time. Charlie was being pretty calm about this sharing an apartment thing, him finding us in bed together already would hardly be a good thing.

I had just disappeared when the door opened. "Bells, what are you doing?" I heard Charlie ask.

"Oh, I just sat down for a minute, I'll be right down," she replied smoothly. In truth, I'd pushed her into our bed and fell on top of her, giddy with excitement and momentarily forgetting we weren't completely alone in our apartment yet.

"Where's Edward?"

"Probably in the bathroom or something," she hedged.

He grumbled something then said, "Well, you both need to hurry up. We're almost done."

As the apartment door closed yet again. I said, "Seahawks pre-season game is on today."

Bella did a Charlie-worthy grumble then said, "Should have figured."

I grabbed her hand and pulled her up off the bed. "Come on Bella, hurry up. If we get them out of here, we can break in the new apartment before the game starts."

She knew exactly what I meant, and I chuckled when she huffed and smacked my chest.

But we did just that. Unloading the rest of the boxes only took another hour and after a tearful goodbye from Bella, we were back in our apartment. Alone. Together. I think those two words flitted through both of our minds at the exact same moment because we both attacked simultaneously. By the time we were both worn out, the Seahawks were just kicking off and I kicked back on our sofa in my underwear to watch. Bella was on the floor unpacking boxes in nothing but one of my white t-shirts and her skimpy panties. I'd felt bad and tried to help while watching the game, but she chased me away.

I had a feeling a halftime tradition was starting as she crawled across the floor towards me the second halftime was announced. By the time the game was back on, neither of us was even thinking about moving and she dozed on my chest while I finished watching the game. When it ended, I turned it off and the room went dark. That night, we went out for dinner, then broke in the kitchen. We were three rooms down in one night, and I had a feeling our bathroom would be joining the following morning.

– – –

It was hard to believe how quickly the weeks were passing. College was nothing like high school for me. I had Bella in my arms every night, in our king size bed instead of her tiny twin and no snoring Charlie across the hall. We made love like it was going out of style and actually put a hole in the wall. We took the head board off the bed after that.

The actual education was really very stimulating. I'd had my eyes set on a path over the summer and now that I was here, I was sure physical therapy is what I wanted to do. If I couldn't be an athlete, I wanted to somehow be involved. And medicine was in my roots. Dad was thrilled, to say the least, with my decision.

I'd been trying and trying to get Bella to spill on her dreams, but she kept tight lips. On a random hump day night, while we humped on the kitchen table, which happened to be one of our favorite spots, she bit her lip. I'd thought she was just biting back a moan again and I sped up, watching her breasts bounce and listening to our bodies slapping together.

She grabbed my hip though and stopped me. Her brow was wrinkled in a confusing way and she looked very indecisive. "Edward?" she asked. Like she didn't have my complete fucking attention. "I want to be a librarian," she blurted, then blushed all over.

She got fucked hard that night. Too many images of Bella the Librarian assaulted me. She seemed to have freed herself by telling me as well. She was uncharacteristically loud and demanding, which I thoroughly fucking enjoyed.

– – –

"Fuck, Drew, fuck, fuck me hard. Fuck. Fuck. Drew. Cumming. Uhn. Gah. Ummmm."

I cocked my eyebrow at Bella across the room. The neighbors were at it again. They seemed to enjoy staying in as much as Bella and I did. They were U of W students too, and boy did they get loud sometimes.

"Fuck, Cammie, your pussy's so good."

I was sitting on the couch, which was right against the wall that separated our apartments. They were literally fucking four inches from my head. What I assumed was a table was slamming rhythmically against the wall and 'Cammie' was still screeching away.

Bella had the end of her pen in her mouth, which would have seemed innocent enough, but I could see her tongue flicking over it and twirling around it. They way her lips puckered as she pushed the pen unconsciously further into her mouth and back out made me instantly hard.

"I'm feeling just slightly insignificant over here," I stated.

Bella's eyes sought mine and she gave me a questioning look. She only pulled the pen out to say, "What do you mean?" then put it back in.

"Well, first off, that lucky fucking pen is getting one hell of a blowjob over there. Secondly, you never scream like that bitch," I said, pointing to the wall. Currently, all I could hear was some seriously perverted breathing that would make a stalker jealous.

She glared, dropping her pen. "I was not giving the pen a blowjob." I didn't miss the defensive tone in her voice. I cocked my eyebrow at her again. "Was not," she retorted. She stood up and stalked over to me. "And I don't need to fake scream like a porn star. You know what you do to me," she said, running her fingers through my hair as she stood in front of me.

I leaned forward and hugged her hips, planting my face into her stomach. I nuzzled her shirt up so I could feel her warm skin on my face. My lips brushed against her skin as I spoke. "I don't think she's faking."

She gently grasped my hair and pulled my head back to look at her. "Do you think I'm faking?"

I shook my head. "No, I know you aren't faking. Just feeling… insecure, I guess."

"Do you think she's having better orgasms just because she's loud?" Bella asked. I shrugged. "Edward…" her eyebrows wrinkled together and she seemed to be searching for words. "Would it make you happy if I screamed like that?"

I know she felt me smiling against her stomach because she sighed in defeat. "Listen, love, I'm not saying you have to scream yourself hoarse or something, I would just really love for you to stop biting back the moans, and don't think I don't notice." I raised an eyebrow at her, she blushed. "I don't know what you heard, but I'm going to tell you flat out, dirty talking and loud orgasms are high on every man's list."

"You want me to talk dirty too?" she mumbled.

I just kissed her stomach, pulling some of her skin between my lips and running my teeth over it. "What were you thinking about when you had the pen in your mouth?" I asked her.

"Giving you a blowjob," she muttered honestly, sounding embarrassed.

"Mmm," I hummed into her stomach. "Are you ashamed to want to suck my cock, Bella?"

She gasped slightly and I pressed my lips harder to her, flicking my tongue against her skin. "No," she answered firmly.

"Good," I told her. "I love when you put my cock in your hot little mouth," I told her. I slid my hand from her hip down to between her thighs and I rubbed her through her pants. "I'm not ashamed to love eating your perfect pussy either. I love sliding my tongue inside of you and tasting how hot I make you."

She moaned at my words and wrapped her fingers into my hair, pulling my face closer to her and bucking her hips slightly.

"See, love, it isn't hard. Don't you like it when I talk dirty to you?"

"Yes," she answered in a half moan.

I kissed her stomach a final time, swirling my tongue in her bellybutton, then I stood up. My cock was pressed to her hip and her pussy was pressed against my thigh as we stood there, pulling each other closer. "Talk dirty to me, Bella," I begged low into her ear.

"Edward," she half moaned again. "You make me so wet."

I hummed my approval. "I love feeling your wet panties, and smelling them, and tasting them. Sometimes I do it when you're not looking."

She gasped against my chest and her hips pressed hard into my thigh. "I love when you get hard and I love when you press your hard cock against me." I groaned, doing just that. "I don't care if we're naked or not, I love feeling it on me and then in me."

"I love when you get so horny, I can smell it."

"I love hearing you grunt my name in the shower, while I'm still in bed and you think I'm sleeping."

"Every morning I have class early, I jerk off in the shower thinking about you."

"I know. One time, I got so horny in class, halfway through I had to excuse myself to use the bathroom, and I fingered myself."

That one did me in, I was pushing her backwards with my body, I don't know where to, but we were lying down somewhere, right now. The middle of the sitting room floor is where we ended up, on the beige carpet.

"You fingered yourself in the girl's bathroom?" I asked, pulling her shirt over her head.

"It felt so good. I came just as a group of girls walked in. I was so horny thinking about what you'd done to me the night before, I didn't care if I had to cum in a public restroom."

"God," I groaned, pressing my lips to hers and fucking her mouth with my tongue.

When I pulled away, she said, "Your turn."

I impatiently unclasped her bra – which I was a pro at by now – and tossed it across the room. "You have the most amazing tits in the world."

I palmed them and teased her hard nipples. "I love sucking your dick and making you cum in my mouth. You taste so good."

She was trumping me. I could feel my cock twitching with every dirty word that came out of her mouth. I was straddling her stomach as I fondled her breasts and she pulled my shirt off.

"I stole a pair of your exceptionally wet panties a week ago and brought them with me to class. I sniffed them when no one was looking and when I got home, I jerked off with them and came all over the wet stain you'd left."

She groaned and pressed her hands against the bulge in my jeans, stroking along my length. "You're obsessed with my panties… I had no idea."

"I'm obsessed with your pussy," I corrected.

She giggled and pulled my jeans open. "Sometimes when we're having sex, I think about you in a doctor's coat. I almost called you Dr. Cullen once."

I groaned. "I think about fucking you as a naughty librarian all the fucking time. Books everywhere, you yelling at me to be quiet, you pressed up against shelves. God, I fucking love it."

She pulled my jeans down my hips and I stood up, removing them completely, then did the same for her. I straddled her waist again, wanting this to go forever.

"I have a dirty book hidden between the mattress and box spring."

"A dirty book?" I asked.

She nodded. "Smut, erotic literature, a dirty book, Edward. I don't need it to turn me on or anything, just sometimes, it gives me ideas."

"What ideas?"

She blushed. "Anal sex."

I think I full out moaned at those two words. I slid down her body, lining up our lips and kissing her until we were both breathless.

"Your turn," she prompted.

"I've thought about anal sex too," I admitted.

She shook her head. "That's cheating. Tell me something else."

"I still want to watch you touch yourself," I said, recalling that that was the one thing we still hadn't done in front of each other, not completely.

"Okay," she said, which sounded like an agreement to me. "I still want to watch you touch yourself too." She held her hand out to stop me when I started to tell her that she was cheating now. "The sounds you make, the grunting, the groaning, the moaning, it makes me the horniest. I usually cum the hardest and fastest when you're grunting in my ear."

"Hearing you scream that you're cumming all over my cock would make me cum on the spot."

"Fuck me." Her hands wrapped around my cock as she said those two words and I almost lost it. She hardly ever swore. 'Fuck' was the one word she could say that would make me obey immediately. I couldn't say no to that, ever.

She moaned loudly as I slid all the way into her with one long thrust and I dug my fingers into the carpet on either side of her head. "Edward," she moaned, again, loudly. "You're so big."

I grunted her name into her ear and her nails dug hard into my shoulders as she moaned loudly again. "You're so wet," I groaned at her. She really was. Her girly-cum was all over my balls with two slow thrusts.

I was hardly moving and she was being the loudest she'd ever been. She was letting go and it was driving me fucking wild. "Bella," I grunted again.

"Edward," she squealed, wrapping her legs tightly around my hips and grinding on me. I thrust into her with three short strokes, grunting with each one and she cried my name loudly again. Her hands landed down on the floor and her whole upper body arched up. She was pushing her chest up into mine, moaning loudly and breathily over my shoulder. Her pussy spasmed hard and she collapsed back down to the floor.

While she panted and came back from that unexpectedly quick orgasm, I slowly kept thrusting into her, just watching her by the light of the muted TV. She slowly looked back up at me.

"I love when you fuck me hard," she told me. I groaned. "I love feeling your balls slapping against me." I grunted out her name and an expletive as I started to pick up our pace again. She gripped my biceps. "I love when you cum in my pussy. I love feeling your cock twitch and the way you always fuck me deep when you cum." I grunted her name again, helpless against her words. "I love when you cum right after I do. Almost every time, I orgasm again from feeling you get off in me."

I slammed into her hard and she moaned out my name shrilly. "Do you want me to fuck you hard and deep, Bella?" I grunted at her.

"Yes," she cried. "Yes, fuck me hard. God, you're so big. Fuck me deeper, Edward. Yes."

It satisfied so many cravings to have her saying these things to me. I gave it to her like she wanted, hard and deep and she came with an earsplitting squeal that the whole apartment complex had to hear. I fought back my own orgasm, sitting back on my heels with her legs braced behind me, my hands holding her up by her hips, and continued to fuck her.

"I love watching my cock slide into your tight, wet pussy," I moaned to her, watching just that.

"Cum in my pussy, Edward," she begged.

It was tempting, but I wasn't ready for this to end quite yet. "All in good time, love. I think you still have a couple of wall shaking orgasms to give me yet."

I worried she was going to get rug burn as I pushed into her hard again and her shoulders started to slide across the floor. I leaned down and pushed both of my arms underneath her shoulders to hold her off the carpet and in place while I continued to slam my groin into hers.

Even the sound of our bodies slapping together was seemingly louder than usual. Bella's moans were endless and loud and I was quickly losing it.

"God, Bella, I'm so close. I love feeling your hips bucking into me, feeling you rocking hard against me when I slam down into you. I love watching you rub your clit on me. I love hearing you moan so fucking loud. I'm so fucking close, I'm gonna cum."

I knew what was coming when her knees locked down against my hips. I shortened my thrusts as her pelvis titled up and she just fucking took me so deep as she clenched and released my cock. Her hands were pushing my face so hard into her neck I could hardly breathe and her moans were so loud next to my ear I thought my eardrum was going to burst, and I'd never been so fucking happy.

"Edward," she screamed. "I'm cumming so hard on your big cock. Cumming. I'm cumming so hard all over your cock!"

"Fuck," I roared, feeling my stomach lurch with the tightening sensation of the orgasm. "Fuck Bella, I'm cumming." I grunted and groaned loudly into her throat as my orgasm drew on and on.

Her moans never stopped as I pumped into her, shooting my load deep inside of her. I felt what I'd always assumed were residual tremors of her pussy, but she claimed it was another orgasm and I ground into her hard, which made her scream my name again.

I collapsed onto her panting and completely spent. I rolled so she was on top of me before pulling out. I expected her to sneak off to the bathroom like she always did to clean up, but she only sat up against my knees. It was odd that this was the first time I got to watch my cum drip out of her pussy. We always just fell asleep or she went to clean it away. I was altogether amazed with the sight, and much more turned on than I should have been after an orgasm like the one I'd just had.

I reached down and spread her folds. She clenched slightly at my touch and I watched a big drip of my cum slide from her pussy onto my stomach. I groaned.

"That's so fucking hot, watching my cum drip out of your pussy."

"Feels nice," she commented, pushing out another glob of my cum.

What sounded like a round of applause startled us and we both turned to look at the distant wall. It was definitely someone clapping and there was a "Woo!" too.

I chuckled and Bella blushed, biting her lip to hide a smile.

We showered together and upon stepping out, even more exhausted than before, I heard someone knocking on the door. I grabbed some pajama pants and t-shirt and scrubbed the towel through my hair quickly. The knocking came louder.

"I'm coming," I hollered, throwing the towel into the laundry basket.

I pulled the door open to a smirking female face. "Were you now? Didn't get your fill before?" I'm sure my confusion was evident on my face. "You must be Edward," she said, stretching her hand forward, "I'm Cammie."

I couldn't help it, I laughed. I laughed as I shook her hand and noticed the male form behind her. "Then you must be Drew," I said, through my laughter. He shifted from one foot to the other and nodded.

"Edward?" I heard Bella call from the bedroom.

"Love, we have company," I yelled back, mostly as a warning. They could hear us fuck all they wanted, but they weren't seeing my Bella naked. "Come in," I offered.

They did and we waited for Bella. She came out of our bedroom in jeans and a sweatshirt and I rolled my eyes at her. We were ready for bed, but company meant no pajamas for her.

"Bella," I said, "this is Cammie and Drew, our neighbors." She stopped short, her face turning red, her eyes growing wide, then she shot me a glare.

Cammie pointed to the couch. "We can hear you sometimes, just barely. Our kitchen is right on the other side. You guys are usually so quiet, we felt bad, but you gave us a run for our money tonight." She seemed oblivious to Bella's embarrassment as she turned to her. "Did he seriously give you as many orgasms as it sounded like he did? I had to meet you two after that. We sometimes make films, but hearing you two, I wondered if we were the right couple to be making films."

The Drew fellow spoke up. "Cammie, I don't think they're interested." He nervously looked towards the door and I wondered if he was as uncomfortable as Bella.

"Er, yeah, sorry," I answered, "we aren't interested in any films."

"Regardless," said Cammie, waving her hand around, "I like you two. We should get coffee together. We are neighbors after all, we should be on friendly terms." With that, she waved goodbye and grabbed Drew's hand then skipped back through our door, closing it on her way out.

Bella gave me an odd look. "She's weird," she whispered. I nodded in agreement.

– – –

After the awkward meeting with the neighbors, we did end up having coffee with them once. Then they talked us into a local Halloween party. Drew, who seriously reminded me of James McAvoy, was a huge Trekkie and we somehow got forced into Star Trek attire. Admittedly, I never got into the whole ordeal but Bella's costume had me hard as fuck and I could hardly wait to make it home to rip that fucker off of her.

Thanksgiving and Christmas came quickly and went even quicker. Bella insisted on going home almost every other weekend to take care of Charlie and although I hated being separated from her, spending time with my parents was great. Seeing Jasper, Emmett, and Alice over Thanksgiving and Christmas break when we were all home for the holidays really made me happy too. I didn't even mind seeing Rosalie.

Jasper and Alice were both in California for college. They were at Davis, Jazz for a degree in History and Ali for a license to be a shrink – both of which seemed hilariously fitting for them. Rosalie had been accepted to some prestigious beauty program in New York and Emmett followed her out there, despite his distaste for all New York football teams. He played for NYU, and it was bittersweet for him to do something like that for Rose. I thought he was retarded for being with her anyway, but it was nice that he cared for someone that much.

I really did miss my friends, and for me, leaving after New Years was harder than leaving at the beginning of the school year. Though I certainly did miss the perks of my and Bella's apartment.

Valentine's Day was approaching quicker than I expected and I had no idea what I was getting Bella. Alice sent me a package of lingerie two weeks before the day. I glared at the contents, wondering if it was some sort of joke.

Edward, started the accompanying note from Alice,

I know you are clueless, so here are some items for your consideration. There is a box of Bella's favorite chocolates at the bottom, a list of her favorite flowers, and of course, as much skimpy lingerie in her size that would fit in this box. Have fun, and Happy Valentine's Day!

Love,

Jasper and Alice

I pulled the pieces out one by one, and one by one, I started slipping them into her underwear drawer, every day something new. The first pair she found confused her. I pretended to be reading, though I was really watching her face scrunch up in confusion as she held them in front of her body. Comprehension dawned on her face, and I still pretended to be absorbed with my book as she smirked and stuffed them back in her drawer.

I hadn't paid attention to which pair of what she took with her to the bathroom that day, but when classes were over and she slowly started unbuttoning her shirt for me in the apartment, the electric blue lacy number was staring me dead in the groin and I wrecked it quite efficiently in my haste to be inside of her.

Valentine's morning, I woke up alone in bed. I frowned at the note that was beside my head.

Edward, wrote Bella,

Happy Valentine's Day, I love you. I'm so sorry I wasn't here to show you how much this morning, but I had to study for a test today. After class I have to be in the Library for Mrs. Pettigrew. I love you, babe, please forgive me for ruining Valentine's Day. :(

~B

I sighed. Mrs. Pettigrew was taking advantage of Bella's willingness more and more these days. Bella volunteered her time down in the library lately. She loved it, though, and I couldn't be upset with her for doing what she loved.

Class drug on and on and I was missing Bella like crazy. Just as my classes ended, I got a text.

Love, I miss you. Come visit me, please. ~B

I jumped at the chance. She usually didn't want me in the library with her. I was always trying to sneak her to the back row of shelves though, and I can't say I blamed her for trying to keep me away. I was going to get her in trouble down there one of these days. I swore I'd be on my best behavior, since it was Valentine's Day and all.

I walked through the big double doors and searched around. There were two girls with Scientology books in a corner whispering heatedly, but other than that, there was Mrs. Pettigrew behind the desk and a girl in a pencil skirt reaching for a book on a high shelf.

I started scanning aisle's for Bella. Further and further back I went, but I didn't see her. I saw the pencil skirt girl again, and thought for a moment that it was Bella with the color of her hair and skin, but Bella didn't wear pencil skirts. Nor did she twist her hair up into a tight bun. Or wear glasses. So I kept searching.

In a dark aisle, I could feel her behind me. When I made to turn around, she reached her hands over my eyes and slid up against the back of my body. "Keep your eyes forward," she whispered.

Thrilled at whatever the hell she was doing, I obeyed. Her hands slid down my face to my chest and she rubbed that through my shirt for a few moments. My eyes focused on the books before me and I chuckled.

"Do you think it is funny that I always find you in the sex related book aisle, Edward?" she asked in a sultry voice.

Her hands slid to the front of my jeans and I hissed as she gripped my cock. "You herded me to them," I accused.

I felt her reach up on her toes, her body sliding along my back, and she kissed my neck. "So I did. I can't help it if I only have one thing on my mind." She released me completely, stepping back away from me, and I hated the loss of contact. "Don't move until I tell you to," she ordered. I shuddered at her demanding tone. "Okay, Edward, turn around and tell me what you think."

I did as she asked and my jaw fucking hit the floor. She was the girl in the pencil skirt. Her dark hair was pulled back into a tight bun. She had fucking horn rimmed glasses on that made my body tingle with want. Her blouse was unbuttoned enough that I could see some really unbelievable cleavage and a black bra. She even have black heels on. She was the naughty fucking librarian of my wettest dreams.

She slowly pushed the glasses up into her hair, and somehow looked even more professional naughty librarian-like. "Well?"

"Holy fucking shit," I groaned. It was the only thing I was capable of doing.

"Drop your pants," she ordered.

I tried to obey, but my fingers were shaking and I ended up fumbling with my button for far too long. My jeans eventually dropped to my knees and when I looked up again, Bella had the skirt bunched up completely around her hips. Her pussy was bare and she had a garter belt on to hold up her stockings. I groaned and had to grip the shelf behind me to keep from falling down. She slowly took a step toward me and popped another button on her shirt as she did so.

When she was just inches from me, her black bra was completely visible and giving her more cleavage than I thought possible. I tried to remember how to swallow.

"Well, Mr. Cullen, what do we have here?" Her fingers slowly slid along the length of my hugely obnoxious erection through my underwear and I groaned. "Oh, I see," she said, gripping me in her hand tightly. She leaned in close and licked my ear. "Naughty boy! You were looking at the sex books."

She stroked along my length slowly as she continued to breathe into my ear and lick it occasionally. "You know what happens to naughty boys who get hard looking at sex books in the library?" she asked. I shook my head. "The naughty librarian comes to find them," she said.

She dropped down then and she was kneeling in front of me, slowly pulling my underwear off my hard cock. She leaned in and her mouth was open, just about to take my cock in her mouth when she looked up at me. "Oh, and remember, naughty boys who make noise get punished, and you don't want that. Trust me."

She plunged my cock into her warm mouth with one quick movement. Knowing she'd probably stop and walk away or something if I made noise, I covered my mouth with my hand, grunting into it quietly. Her eyes met mine with a warning in them when she heard me. I whimpered pitifully, watching her mouth descend further and further onto my stiff length.

I was a fucking goner in minutes flat. She had a mouth with too much talent and naughty librarian Bella had been starring in my dreams for so long, and with the real life one before me, trying to not cum was ineffective.

"Bella," I warned in a soft grunting voice. She met my eyes and smiled around me. I lightly gripped either side of her head, enjoying her mouth for just a few more seconds before it was unbearable and I was on the edge of an orgasm. I pulled out of her mouth.

I didn't want to cum yet. She hadn't worn panties for a reason and I was sure as shit going to fuck her in the library, even if a blowjob would have been fucking awesomely great.

Her anger was immediate. It was written all over her face as she grabbed my hands off her head and pushed them onto the shelves. She dug her fingernails into the back of my hand as she held them there and I knew better than to move. Her mouth plunged back onto my cock in one quick movement of her head. I hit the back of her throat hard and my hips lurched when she gagged.

She wanted my cum in her mouth. She fucked my cock with her lips and throat and with her nails digging into my hands, I couldn't stop her. I bit my lip hard to hold in the sounds she was eliciting from me. I was back on the edge of an orgasm again in moments.

"Fuck, Bella. Fuck, Bella," I groaned.

Her lips came to my tip and she sucked hard on it, thrusting her head with short strokes as she hit my sensitive spots with knowing movement. I came with a huge shudder, shooting my cum onto her soft tongue that licked every drop from my tip and she swallowed it all.

I softened minutely in her mouth, though I didn't go completely flaccid. She could have had me rock hard again with her mouth. Instead, she dropped me from her lips and stood up. She turned away from me and bent over, grabbing a shelf in front of her.

"Lick me," she ordered.

I swear, it may have even been better hearing her say that than it was hearing her say, "Fuck me." I obediently – and very happily – dropped to my knees behind her, shoving my tongue forcefully between her lips right to where I knew the source of her wetness would be. I groaned happily when her flavor hit my tongue and palmed her ass to spread her wider and push my face against her harder.

I knew every spot my tongue could reach and which ones she liked best as I flicked it over and into her hole. She had her mouth pressed into her arm and I could hear her muffling moans with her skin. I removed my hands from her ass and pressed two fingers directly into her entrance, not pausing at all but thrusting them inside of her as deep as they could go. The way her pussy clenched down to grab them told me she was going to be easy.

I used my other hand to expose her clit and I lapped at it a few times then wrapped my lips around it and sucked. Her knees nearly buckled they shook so hard. She'd gotten into the habit of letting herself scream when she orgasmed lately. When I heard her choked cry, I knew she was going to cum. Her pussy squeezed around my fingers hard as I softly licked at her clit and my fingers curled down to her g-spot.

I was hard again and though I knew she wouldn't have minded getting fucked from behind, I stood her up straight, turned her in my arms, and picked her up.

"Edward, fuck me," she begged quietly into my ear and I loved the turn of the tables. She was no longer the demanding librarian, I now had the upper hand.

"Call me Dr. Cullen," I demanded.

She did. She begged Doctor Cullen to fuck her. And I did. She was fighting to remain quiet as I held her with my arms under her knees and her arms around my neck, thrusting into her hard.

I didn't care if we got caught. The only ones likely to catch us back here were students and most of them would just walk away, embarrassed. Bella had had this planned and I'm sure she'd taken every precaution, including making sure that Mrs. Pettigrew had to stay up at her desk.

Bella came hard and I quickly followed.

Her lips pressed against my ear as we panted. "Happy Valentine's Day, Dr. Edward Cullen."

I smirked. "Very Happy Valentine's Day, Naughty Librarian Bella."

When I set her back down to the ground, she surprised me by not immediately fixing her clothing and covering up. Instead, she reached high up into one of the shelves and pulled down something small and black. With a devious smirk, she handed me a video camera.


A/N: That’s the epilogue. They are in college, extremely content, their future is being planned, and happy ever after, the end.

This chapter is very, very much dedicated to mssammydean. She inspired most of it. And she will enjoy the carpet sex, damn it!


Purgatory: Senior Year - Chapter 34

All recognized characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. No copyright infringement intended.

This chapter has been beta'd by the ever amazing: Strae


Bella's stomach growled again. "The baby must be hungry already," I said.

"Shut up, Edward. I'm not going to get pregnant."

I rolled my eyes, though it was fairly pointless. "Just because you say you're not going to doesn't make it the truth. I thought you knew the mechanics of making babies by now, but apparently, you still think parents wish for one and the stork brings it."

She growled. "My God, just shut up would you and let me finish. I'm not going to get pregnant because I can't."

I know the shock on my face was obvious. "Can't as in, like, can't ever?"

"No," she groaned.

"Oh, thank God." Her shocked look must have mirrored mine from before. I rolled my eyes. "Yes, I want kids," I said before she could ask. "But not now, so would you spit it the fuck out already?"

"I didn't tell anyone I went because it was the single most embarrassing thing I've ever done in my entire life," she muttered.

"Can we skip all this evasive shit, please? I don't have a fucking clue what you're talking about."

She groaned. "I'm on the pill."

"Since fucking when?" I asked incredulously.

"A while," she answered.

"But—"

"I wasn't going to tell you until I was certain that it was going to be effective. I wanted to be certain and I was already tempted enough as it was, so I couldn't tell you."

"Christ," I groaned, running my hands through my hair. I was so fucking thankful that babies weren't in the making at this moment. "I don't know why you didn't just tell me that before, save me all this panicking."

"I didn't really want to tell you at all." She sighed then, seeing the look on my face. "Alice gave me the number to a doctor in Port Angeles so I wouldn't be recognized. She doesn't even know I went, no one does. And that bitch was a bitch, I've never been so humiliated."

"What's her name?" I asked seriously. "I'll have Carlisle get her license suspended."

"Edward," she groaned. "I think it was more me than her. She just reminded me of Lauren. I do think she found it funny that I was still a virgin though. She offered to get rid of my hymen. I'm beginning to think that would have been a good idea." Her face was pure red as she told me this.

Irrational anger flared in my chest and a growl rumbled out of my throat before I could stop it. "I'd have killed her if she would have taken your hymen. That was mine."

Bella smirked. "I think it's common, so the pain isn't as bad."

"I don't care," I growled, "I'd have killed her."

"Calm down," she said, "you got my hymen. It was yours."

I stood up and grabbed her hand to tow her up after me. "Damn right. Let's get some food since I've decided no one is going to get killed today and we've discovered you're only going to be eating for one."

She chuckled. "Well, if we keep this up, I'm going to be eating for five. Sex is exhausting."

"You know you love it!"

She chuckled again. "Damn right."

I pulled my top drawer open and pulled out a pair of boxers and two plain undershirts, handing one to Bella. She smiled gratefully and pulled it over her head.

It took me a few minutes to realize that there was nothing electrical on. At all. Anywhere in the house.

Bella shivered. "It's cold out here."

"I think the power is out," I said. I flipped a switch and nothing happened. "Does anyone know where you are?" I asked, suddenly back to a bit of reality.

She nodded. "I texted Alice when I pulled in the driveway, she knows I'm safely out here with you."

I raised an eyebrow at her. "I don't know about 'safely'."

She smiled. "Yeah, you got me there. You're already trying to starve me to death and kill me with sex."

I whirled at her and picked her up off the floor. She squealed from the unexpectedness of the attack. I placed her on the counter. "What shall I feed you, then, before I begin trying to kill you with sex again?"

"It would be a great way to go, wouldn't it?" she asked me, reaching out and running her hand through my hair. I hadn't anticipated her grabbing it, but she did and pulled me to her mouth. Her lips pressed firmly to mine, molding to fit the exact shape and her legs folded around my waist.

"Food, Bella," I mumbled into her mouth.

She pulled back with a giggle. "You distracted me."

I raised an eyebrow, trying to figure out how exactly I distracted her. "Well, now you know how I feel ninety-nine percent of the time." She rolled her eyes at me. "You never told me what you wanted." Her eyes narrowed and a smirk came to her lips. "Cereal it is then," I said before she could tell me I distracted her again.

I poured two bowls. It was weird how you never noticed that the light always came on in the fridge every time you opened it, until it didn't come on. I handed Bella her bowl and hopped up onto the counter next to her.

"Think everyone is okay?" Bella asked between a bite.

"Definitely," I answered. She sighed a little bit. "Can I ask you something without you getting completely mad at me?"

She thought. "I suppose," was her answer.

"How are you feeling?"

She grimaced slightly, then sighed again, louder this time. "I am starting to feel a bit sore." I watched as she peeked at me for my reaction.

"I'm fine with taking a break, you know. We have our whole lives, we don't have to get it all perfect in one day." She nodded at me, smiling shyly. "I really just want to hold you."

She turned to look at me and her eyes were doing that love-beyond-words thing that made me melt. I think it was safe to say we were done eating.

I would have liked to shower before bed, but no electricity kind of made that difficult. As we walked back towards my room, the view out the large picturesque window caught my attention. Everything was way too shiny.

Apparently, it had started to rain at sometime and most of the snow that fell was gone, but everything was covered in an inch-thick layer of ice now. The thermometer read thirty-three degrees though and I was willing to bet that we'd only have a two hour late start in the morning because it would all melt off over night. So much for a snowstorm.

With a shiver, Bella grabbed the comforter from the end of my bed and opened her arms for me to crawl into. We snuggled up together, wrapped the blanket around us, and used body heat to stay warm. She kept humming happily into my chest and I was smiling into her hair when we both fell asleep again.

It was three o'clock in the morning when both of our phones beeped and buzzed on the nightstand next to my bed. I blindly groped for them and Bella reached for hers out of my hand.

"How many do you have?" she asked me, her voice rough with sleep.

"Five voice, thirteen texts. You?"

"Two voice, weird, thirteen texts for me too."

She played hers first. The first one was Alice calmly stating that Bella was in deep shit when she got home. The second was Charlie, not sounding at all happy.

"Bella, it's Dad. Alice told me where you are. I'm not sure what was going through your head driving on a day like this or how you could possibly put yourself in danger that way. Just… don't… drive again. Stay there." The line clicked dead and I stared in shock at her phone. It was like permission, only I was willing to bet that it was as Alice had said, she'd still be in deep shit when she got home.

I played mine next. The first two were from Carlisle just updating his and Mom's status.

When the third started, it was Emmett singing. "You're sooooo, getting boooooned, right nooooooow." I hit delete before anymore could come out of that.

The last two were Carlisle saying he heard we didn't have power or phone lines, and that he'd try again soon. When he tried again, we still didn't have power or phone. I found it amusing how he called to tell me I was without power or phones.

None of my texts were anything important, half of them were Emmett being retarded. When Bella blushed I asked her, "What?"

"Nothing," she said.

I grabbed her phone. It was from Emmett of course. Give me a F, give me a U, give me a C, give me a K. What's that spell? FUCK! Add Edward and you're SOOOOO FUUUUUUCKING Edward, right NOOOOOOW!

I rolled my eyes. I sent my dad a quick text letting him know the phones and power was back. When Bella was done, I placed both of our phones back on the nightstand and curled myself back around her warm little body. The warmth made it easy to drift to sleep.

Loud blaring music coming from my iPod deck woke us up. Today the song was:

"All night long, said, all night long, I been drinking about how to get your panties on the floor. So let's get it over and just get naked with sweat dripping down your little back. I'm a Holy roller and I own the spaceship so let me take you for a little ride, ride, and ride."

I laughed and Bella groaned. "What is this?"

"Spaceship by Puddle of Mudd. Isn't it great?" Laughing, I fisted the bottom of my t-shirt that she was wearing and whispered in her ear, "So let's get it over and just get naked."

She pushed my shoulder until I rolled onto my back and she straddled my waist. "It sounds great when you say it, but…" she grabbed my iPod off the deck and the music cut off, "how can you listen to that this early?" I shrugged. "What time is it anyway?"

"Probably six thirty."

"Why is it so bright out?"

I shrugged again. "It always looks brighter behind that curtain because it's so dark in here. Go check." I nudged her towards the window.

She crawled across my bed and my shirt was just long enough to cover all the good parts. When she threw the curtain open, she groaned.

"What?" I asked.

"Snow's all gone, ice too."

"And you're upset about that?"

She jumped back on the bed, crawling back over to me. "I'm not ready for this to end."

I nodded in agreement and said, "Me neither." I flipped the TV on and scanned for the local news. When I found it, Forks High was on a two hour delay. I flipped it off again and wrapped my arms tight around her. "Well, at least we get to cuddle a little bit longer before we have to get ready."

"What a crappy snowstorm," Bella groaned against my chest. "I wouldn't exactly know, but aren't they supposed to last for a few days at least?"

I chuckled. "I wouldn't know either, but usually, I think. We're in Washington though, Bella. We get every element in one day at times. We don't count for what's usual."

"Nope, we're definitely unusual."

"Still talking about the weather, Bella?"

She swatted my chest and I chuckled. We talked and joked and held onto each other for another hour before making our way to my shower.

We both went in together under the hot spray. As much as I would have loved a quickie before school, I restrained myself because Bella was keeping everything as innocent as was possible with another naked person. She let me wash her and she washed me in return and it was definitely one of the best showers I'd ever had, including all the ones that were mainly just jerk off sessions.

The morning routine continued and she kissed me goodbye before climbing into her truck.

I had been right and everything had melted off overnight. The temperature was already at forty and inclining.

School was morbidly boring as always, except when I'd see Bella and she'd smile shyly at me. That girl had her ways, and I was more depressed than ever at the fact that we weren't going to be spending tonight together.


So I ended up taking a back way home and when I spotted the Forks Police Station, I pulled in. I assume subconsciously I realized this is where I'd wanted to go, but I had no idea why. Charlie's cruiser was in the lot. Before I even had any plan at all, I was walking through the door.

I spotted Charlie immediately. The little bell on the door announced my entry and the Chief looked up at me. His eyes narrowed and his face turned an odd shade of purple.

"Hi, how can I help ya?" The eager red head with short hair was just itching for something to do. Charlie was at his desk with a deck of cards, looking bored, I could only guess that this secretary was severely lacking in the busy department – I had a feeling she may have been lacking in the brains department as well.

"Chief Charlie Swan please," I said, like I couldn't see him ten feet away.

"What is your name, sir?"

"Edward Cullen."

The red head smiled broadly and reached down to press a button. Her finger hovered over the button, she cleared her throat then pressed the button down. She leaned forward and spoke clearly, "Chief Swan, Edward Cullen is here to see you, Chief Charlie Swan."

Charlie was already to the front desk by the time the red head had finished. "Thank you, Heidi," he said kindly to her. I had a feeling I'd just made her day. He jerked his head for me to follow him and swung open a partition. I followed him back to his desk.

"What can I do for you, Cullen?"

"Sir," I started, he raised his eyebrows. "Charlie?" I asked. His eyebrows went up higher. "Chief Swan?" My voice went up girlishly high with the question and nerves. I cleared my throat.

"Charlie is fine," he grumbled.

"Charlie," I started again, not having a clue where I was going with this, "I would like to speak to you about, er… I guess I feel like you don't fully understand my and Bella's… situation."

"Situation?" he grumbled, looking incredibly unpleased.

"Relationship," I stated firmly. If anything, he looked a little embarrassed by the fact that I came to talk to him about his daughter's relationship with me, and more unpleased by the new word. "Look, Charlie, I love her. I know you think this is probably just some stupid high school fling and that I'm only with her for one reason, but I'm telling you right now that I'm with her until she says otherwise. I love her, more than I expect you to believe or understand and this isn't a fling, for either of us." His face was turning red and purple and kind of green, but I kept going. "Like I said, I don't expect you to believe me or understand, but I am in love with your daughter. You may think I'm young and stupid and God knows what else, and believe that I have no idea what love is or what it feels like, but I'm being completely honest with you when I tell you—"

"That you love my daughter, yeah, I got it, just don't say it again."

Well, at least he was listening. "Bella means a lot to me."

"She means a lot to me too," Charlie said defensively.

"I don't doubt that for a moment, and I wasn't implying that she doesn't. I just want you to know that I'm not trying to take her away from you. She can loves us both you know."

"What the hell did you come here for, Cullen?"

I groaned inwardly at the newly irate tone in his voice. "I don't want you to hate me, Charlie. I even might want you to approve of me a little bit. At the very least, I'd like to be civil."

I held my breath waiting for a response and all I got was a spat out, "Get outta here, kid."

– – –

I showed up at Bella's house that night right after dinner just like we'd planned. No more of this avoidance crap. I needed to spend a couple hours with her in the evenings, if I didn't get the nights.

Much to my surprise, Charlie answered the door. I think I shit myself. I know I gulped. I expected to get run off like a stray cat again. He didn't make eye contact, and just said, "Cullen," and stepped out of the way so I could enter.

Bella was standing over by the kitchen doorway, smirking. I gave her a 'what the fuck?' stare.

"Like baseball, Cullen?"

His partial sentences were really starting to amuse me. "Yeah."

"Game's on," he muttered, walking towards the living room.

Bella snickered quietly and took my hand as we walked into the living room behind him. I would have been still standing in the doorway with my mouthing hanging open if it weren't for her hand leading me. Charlie sat in his chair and Bella and I sat on the couch. She snuggled into my side, kind of hugging my arm. For more than half the game, I could feel her just staring at me, not even aware of the TV, but I forced my eyes to stay ahead so I wouldn't get lost in her gaze. At least it was a good game.

Charlie took a bathroom break during a commercial and I quickly looked at Bella, who look advantage of my turned head by kissing me quickly.

"Hi," she said.

"Hi," I said back, feeling a stupid smile spread across my face.

"I hear you talked to Charlie this afternoon." I nodded. "He asked me some stuff, like if I loved you and if I was in this for the long haul."

She didn't continue so I pressed her on. "And?"

"Obviously I said yes to both. Charlie grumbled something about stupid shiny Volvo owners and then he told me he thought you were okay. I warned him that you were probably going to be over here a lot from now on and that snuggling and kissing really wasn't that big of a deal."

I raised my eyebrows at her. "Really? You talked to your dad about kissing me, huh?"

She blushed. "Well, I told him goodnight kisses were still kind of customary between couples." She shrugged.

I laughed and I heard Charlie coming down the stairs, rather loudly, so I took that as my sign to kiss her now and not in front of him. I stole a quick kiss and couldn't bite back the stupid smile at all. Bella was trying, biting that bottom lip of hers like she always did to drive me crazy.

The game ended. Charlie stood up and stretched. "School night Ed—Cullen," I watched his face go red for almost using my first name and I tried to hold back a fit of laughter, "better get home."

"Good game, Charlie, thanks for letting me watch it over here."

He snorted quite obnoxiously. "Yeah, I'll bet that big screen at home is much worse than our crappy thirty-two inch."

"Dad!" Bella hissed.

He glared at her for a moment, then awkwardly patted me once on the shoulder while looking in the other direction. "Feel free to uh, watch the game here anytime you'd like." He made a hasty escape after that.

He was halfway up the stairs when I heard him yell, "Five minutes Bella. I expect you upstairs in five minutes."

She smiled at me and gave me an eye roll. "Yes, Dad."

She grabbed my hand then and led me out onto the front porch. The air was cold but it felt much more open and less stressful on the porch.

"Thank you," Bella said, looking up into my eyes.

"For what, love?" I asked honestly.

"Going to talk to him, having the courage I guess, I don't know. I'm happy you guys are… getting along?" Her eyebrows kind of knit together with confusion. Getting along was about the best way to describe it though.

"No problem, Bella, I'd do anything for you." I gave her a grin at my cheesy line, though it was one hundred percent true.

She shuffled closer to me and wrapped her arms around my waist. "I know you would, Edward."

I sighed and rested my head on the top of Bella's. "I should probably go before Charlie says he was just kidding about the whole thing and gets trigger happy."

Bella's head flew back and she scowled angrily up at me. I kissed the hard line of her lips with a laugh. She swatted me on the side lightly once, but then wrapped her fingers into my hair and pulled my lips back down to hers.

"Goodnight kisses are customary, remember?" she asked me.

I smiled crookedly down at her. "How could I forget, love?"

She smiled before pressing her lips into mine. I sighed happily and she parted our lips further, pressing her hot little tongue into my mouth. I rubbed her arms slowly, kissing her for as long as she allowed me to. Or until Charlie did get trigger happy or something.

Neither was what broke the kiss. No, devilish pixie Alice came speeding home. Both Bella and I turned to look at the quickly approaching tiny figure. She was running and Bella squeaked when Alice hooked onto her arm and pulled her into the house.

All I heard besides Bella's squeak was, "Curfew Bells. Hi Edward. Bye Edward." Then the door slammed.

I got a text from Bella as I got into my car, still laughing incredulously at the whole night. Sorry. Love you.

I chuckled some more. Love you too Bella. Sleep well.

While I was at it, I sent a jab at Jasper. Your girlfriend has to be the world's most effective cock block.

He shot me back a text quickly. Nope, that would actually be the chastity belt.

I groaned. "Medieval, know it all, bastard with his tiny cock-blocking girlfriend," I muttered to myself as I drove home.

Once home, I did everything I could think of doing, short of taking sleeping pills, to get myself to sleep. None of it worked. Not working out, not a shower, not jerking off while showering, not Claire De Lune, nothing. I was restless. My bed smelled of Bella but her warmth was missing.

It was late and without much of a second thought, I got in my car hoping that a drive would make me drowsy. It didn't. I was driving around town and wide awake. Of course I ended up on her street. I kept driving. Then I was on her street again. The third time I saw my hiding place from the last time I'd snuck up to her house and swerved into it.

"This is stupid," I told myself aloud as I crept along the tree lines and yard lines again. "This is really fucking stupid," I growled at myself as I spotted her window.

But I didn't fucking care because I needed her to sleep. I needed her every fucking second of every fucking day. I needed her.

I scaled the tree. It was much more difficult than I remembered it being. Again the window was unlocked and it slid opened silently. Jumping in was seemed easier this time.

I swore I heard Bella sigh. She rolled over and her eyes were open and knowing as she stared at me.

"I couldn't sleep either," she whispered. I smiled at her and strolled to the bed. She sat up halfway and pulled my pants open before I could. She grabbed my hands when they fell down and pulled me down onto the tiny twin bed. I kicked my shoes and the jeans off my feet then molded my entire body to hers. Before I could forget, I reached down to my jeans and set my alarm on my phone for five in the morning.

Bella was already almost asleep, I could tell by the way she breathed. "I'll leave the window open for you," she told me.

"I'll come," I promised her.


*** Outtake: ***

A/N: Okay, so this was originally what I had wrote, but I decided it wasn't going to work. Prologue to this outtake is that Edward climbed through her window, they got nekkid, and were going to get it on...

The thundering footsteps up the stairs were enough warning for me to take cover. The window was already open so I flung myself through it while Bella kicked my clothes under her bed. I was on the second story so my only choice was to hang from the windowsill and pray. The blackness of the night should have given me the cover I so needed, and my ass was facing the woods so mooning the world wasn't too big of an issue.

I could just see over my arm in the position I held myself. Charlie flung the door open and Bella flung her blanket over her naked body.

"Dad!" she shrieked.

"Bella, are you okay, I heard something." He looked around the room and I noticed my boxers were only half-hidden under the bed. I wondered how bad this fall was going to hurt and if it would kill me.

"I'm fine!" Bella's voice was higher than normal with nervousness. Her face was red and she looked on the verge of tears as she clung the blanket to her chin.

Charlie swept the room with his eyes again, they came to rest on his feet. "Oh Jesus," he muttered, backing up two steps. His face turned many shades darker red than Bella's, which I thought would have been impossible. I silently willed Bella to know how much I love her and hoped she wouldn't miss me too much after I died. "I-I-I-I'm sorry."

Charlie disappeared, slamming the door, thundering back down the stairs, hell, I even heard the front door slam. I scrambled back through the window and landed hard on my right elbow and knee. If I hadn't been caught from the inside, it was just my luck that Charlie would find my naked ass plastered to his rough wood siding, dangling from his daughter's window. But what the hell had that all been about?

I looked to the floor and found where Charlie had been standing mere moments ago. Not six inches from where he'd stood lay Bella's underwear, wet stain up. I laughed, and tried to muffle it with my hand. The cruiser started somewhere in the distance and I went silent. Gravel crunched then tires sped on pavement.

"You need to go," Bella hissed.


A/N: This chapter was full of cock blocks, eh? Charlie and Alice are just cock blocking mo-fos. I snicker like a freaking hyena at the thought of Charlie thinking he caught Bella diddling herself when Edward is hanging butt ass naked from her window.

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Purgatory: Senior Year - Chapter 33

All recognized characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. No copyright infringement intended.

This chapter has been beta'd by the ever amazing: Strae


A/N: WARNING-Be prepared for one hugely obnoxious lemon, or two, or three. I lost count. I cannot be held responsible for any lost or damaged panties. Read at your own risk.

I think Bella fell asleep while I held her there. I remained awake and ran my fingers through her long, dark locks. I decided then and there that I didn't care how much trouble we got in for this. Fuck 'em all, each and every last one of them. We deserved this. We deserved a chance to be alone together, no stress – well, a little, seeing as I was really bummed she still wasn't cumming – no worries, no thinking about anyone but us.

She hummed in her sleep and moved her naked body even closer to mine, practically laying on top of me. I smiled to myself and continued to caress her hair. Just us.

She didn't sleep long, a small power nap was apparently all she needed. She woke up bright-eyed and smiling, with just a hint of a devious glint hiding in there. I didn't question it, I wasn't worried, she could do whatever the fuck she wanted.

It just so happens what she wanted was to get us hot and panting again. She slowly climbed her way up to my lips and kissed me hard, sliding her leg completely over my body and sitting on my stomach.

I couldn't suppress a groan. She was so fucking hot and so fucking wet. I could feel her inching downwards and I gently grabbed her hips to stop her.

She pulled back from me slightly with a confused look on her face.

"Before we do that again, can we talk?"

I got an incredulous stare for that one. I chuckled.

"What do you want to talk about?" she asked, still sitting there on my lower stomach. I don't know that I was capable of a conversation with her seated naked just inches from cock.

I shrugged. "Just to talk. I haven't talked to you in forever."

"We talk every day."

"Yeah, but there is always something else going on. I mean to just talk, you know. Just us." She nodded and laid herself down on top of me. "How are you?" I asked her. "And I mean really, how are you?"

"I do miss you," she said. "We see each other and talk to each other every day, but I guess it's like you said. There's always something else, always something going on, not just us. So I miss you."

I wrapped my arms around her and held her. "I know. I miss you too. But we have each other now."

She inhaled deeply and pressed her face into my neck. "I love you."

Her breath against my neck made me shiver and pull her closer. "I love you too, Bella. Always." We just laid there again, silently holding each other for a few minutes. We didn't have to talk, we both knew how the other felt and our embrace felt so good. "Do you talk about me with your dad?" I asked.

She seemed a bit confused by my question, but answered regardless. "Sometimes, I guess, yeah, you come up."

"So, honestly, how much does he hate me?"

"I don't think he hates you," she said too quickly. "I mean, I think it's more that he hates the idea of you, not you as a person."

I chuckled. "That was one skilled avoidance, love, unfortunately, it didn't work."

Bella sighed. "I am serious. I think it's more the fact that you're my first… er, boyfriend than anything."

"How often do you talk about Jacob?" I asked, even though I didn't really want the answer.

"Me, never," she answered.

"Again, Bella, wonderful avoidance." I rolled my eyes very pointedly at her scowling face as she rested her chin on my chest.

"Charlie still brings him up like he never attacked me. He takes Jake's calls though I refuse. And he conveys the sorries, 'I shouldn't have's, the 'I'd take it back if I could's, 'can't we still be friends', 'the I miss you's. Like I didn't hear…" She pushed her lips together very conspicuously.

"Hear what?" I asked, wondering what she was keeping from me.

"Nothing," she answered. Her terrible acting skills came into play while she pretended it was nothing. She shrugged just a little too big, her eyes were just a little bit too calm and far too wide to be believably innocent. She also bit her lip like she did when she was nervous. Definitely hiding something.

"Hear what, Bella?"

She sat up. Whether she was trying to distract me or not, it worked. All I could think was boobs. Very nice, firm, perfect, perky boobs. Deliciously tasty-looking boobs. My God, those nipples are amazing boobs. Boobs.

Wait. I shook my head and growled a little bit, while closing my eyes and pinching the bridge of my nose. "As much as that worked, I'm not giving up, you fucking cheater. Now what did you hear?"

I wondered if she would take it further to win. Cause she could have. I'm sure she knew that. I warned her, "The longer you draw this out, Bella, the worse I'm going to assume it is."

She sighed. "I'll tell you, but you have to look at me so I can figure out how badly you're taking it."

I peeked through one eye and there she sat, boobs and all. Yeah, no way would I be concentrating with those babies in full sight. I smirked as I reached forward and cupped one in each hand. Smirking wider yet when their perfectness was pressed into each of my palms, I finally met her eyes. I almost laughed at her biting her lip and looking very distracted. Served her right.

"Come on then, out with it."

She glared at me. She took a deep breath and her chest expanding distracted me momentarily. I was beginning to think this was the cure all for everything. She probably could have told me that Armageddon killed the rest of the world, but if my hands were on her boobs, I would still be happy.

"I heard that Jacob told his buddies he would rather have forced me then have had nothing at all."

Nope. I was wrong.

That stupid son of a mother fucking piece of shit fucker.

Bella lips crashing into mine surprised and distracted me, but only for a moment. My hands had fallen away from her in my anger. She grabbed my wrists and pushed my palms back onto her boobs.

"I'm going to kill him," I mumbled on her lips. I think she understood me.

She kissed me harder yet, licking my lips and going to whole nine fucking yards to distract me from the anger with her body and lips.

Somehow it didn't work.

"Gonna fuckin' beat that fucker to death," I growled into her mouth.

She bit my bottom lip, hard, and sucked on it, working her tongue over it in the most amazing way. I made a sound that I'd never heard myself make before and it could only be described as a whimper-growl-moan. Apparently she'd won because all I could think about was the way her body was pushed against me and her mouth moving against mine.

I pushed my tongue out to meet hers and she responded twofold. She grabbed my hair and pressed our lips even harder together. She could hardly breathe, and I could hear her trying to gasp, but my mouth wouldn't let her. I pushed her back slightly and her head fell back in a loud gasp as she caught a breath.

"Edward, I want you," she panted. "I want you so bad right now."

It was my undoing when she looked down at me, her eyes dark with lust. I scrambled for the condoms and tore one off and open.

I don't know if this was another part of her distraction, but frankly, I didn't care.

I rolled the condom on quickly and Bella lined herself up while I held my cock for her. Just as I knew she would, she winced at the first few inches. But she was a pro at relaxing by now and when I was again completely sheathed inside of her, she didn't pause. She settled her legs beneath her like she wanted them and started back upwards.

I groaned loudly at the sight and feel of it. It never ceased to amaze me just how hot and tight her pussy was, not to mention the never ending supply of delicious moisture.

Up and down she went, riding me just like I wanted her to and I hope just like she wanted to. Her heaving breasts caught my attention again and I pressed my palms into them. Her nipples were unbelievably hard. I rolled them between my fingers and she moaned. Her pace quickened and I swear I felt her clamp down on me slightly.

That fact overexcited me, along with the fact that I imagined her screaming my name as her body spasmed around me. It was definitely not the right path for my brain to have taken.

I grabbed her hip and groaned, "Stop, stop."

"No," she said, bouncing harder on me. I again couldn't remember shit but how fucking good it felt. "I want it, Edward, give it to me."

I knew what it was she was talking about. As always, my body didn't disappoint Bella. Though, she had to have been disappointed because there I was cumming again and she still hadn't.

My orgasm just left me more frustrated. I was feeling more than just a bit incompetent and disgusted with myself at that moment and I was probably a bit rougher than I should her been when I grabbed her and threw her back down against my mattress.

I vaguely registered the excitement on her face as I came towards her and then disappointment when I dove face first between her thighs. I couldn't stand the fact that I couldn't please her anymore. So I pressed my tongue against her folds and licked and sucked quickly at her clit. I was delighted at how far her back arched up off the bed.

But she had to be fucking ultra-super-mega horny by now. My useless dick couldn't do a fucking thing for her. I carefully pushed one finger through her wetness and inside of her hot body. Her back arched impossibly higher and I added a second finger quickly. I pumped my fingers in and out of her body and my tongue ran a ruthless path up and down over her engorged nub.

"Oh, God, Edward," she panted. "Oh, God, Edward," she cried louder. I heard her breath catch slightly and felt the unmistakable tightening of her body. "Oooh," she breathed out brokenly, gasping for another breath.

I slowed my tongue slightly and made more firm, precise movements against her clit. Her fingers in my hair curled into fists and she went oddly still. With a final round of my fingers pressing into her and my tongue rubbing on her, she exploded. Her legs shook before clamping down on my head and her shoulders came up off the bed while she pulled at my hair. I didn't notice if she was pulling clumps out or strangling me, because that look on her face was everything and the only thing that mattered.

She fell back into the mattress panting heavily while I slowly continued to lick at her clit. Her hands loosened in my hair and she lovingly ran her fingers against my scalp. I kept my eyes looking up her body and eventually she came to enough to smile down at me. Her hands tried to guide me up towards her, but I refused to move. I so was not fucking finished. I was dead set on making her scream my name.

I wrapped my lips around her clit and lightly slid my teeth over it.

"Ohgod," she gasped.

That's fucking right. The oh-so-amazing spot in her that I'd avoided last time was front and fucking center now. I curled my fingers up and her ass jumped right off the fucking bed when I found it. She pushed down onto my fingers, wriggling into the pressure. She seemed to like firm pressure there so I gave it to her and she moaned loudly. Her hands slammed down into the bed and curled into tight fists while her back arched up high again.

"Holy fucking shit," she cried as I applied even more pressure.

Her dirty mouth spurred me on. I pumped my fingers up into her spot and applied as much pressure to her clit with my tongue as possible. Her ass arched high off the bed with a squeal and I used my other hand to grab her right ass cheek firmly.

She clamped down on me so hard. "Edward," she shrieked loudly, her voice going up a couple octaves at the end, almost sounding questioning.

She clamped down on my fingers so hard that she actually pushed them out and her body quaked then fell down to the mattress, I lost contact with her clit. My arm underneath her got covered in something warm and I watched in amazement as her juice poured from her body. With each clench, another gush of fluid came rushing down onto my arm.

I was fucking transfixed as she writhed hard and came so much fucking harder. A final rocking shudder rolled through her and one last clench sent one more drop of her girly cum onto my soaking wet sheets.

I used my thumb to catch the liquid and followed up to her hot, crazy wet center. When I brushed her clit, she quaked hard again and cried out another, "Oh."

I was pretty fucking satisfied in that accomplishment and I crawled slowly up towards the pillows. She was covered in sweat and her hair was everywhere. I'd never seen her look so fucking sexy. I laid down next to her on my side, propping my head on my arm to watch her as she came back from that.

"Oh my God," she panted. Her thighs clamped and she shook again from an aftershock. I was completely amazed that this was lasting so long for her. I guess if my dick was really that useless, at least I had talented fingers.

"Edward," she groaned.

"Right here, love."

She cracked an eyelid open and saw me lying there watching her. "Don't know what happened," she panted, shaking her head. "Most amazing feeling in the world," she added. "It felt like something burst. So good."

"It was unbelievable. Breathtaking."

She nodded, then she tried to sit up. "Oh my God," she breathed, collapsing back down. Her arms looked like rubber. I chuckled. "I don't feel like I have any bones left," she said.

"That's alright, I'll lie here with you until they grow back."

She laughed breathily and laid there silently, her breathing slowly going back to normal. Finally she sat herself upright. She smiled at me first, and when she looked down at the bed her eyes went wide.

"Did I do that?" she asked, eying the wet stain.

"Like I said, unbelievable and breathtaking."

"My God," she said. "No wonder it felt like something burst."

I chuckled. "It was quite the sight. Amazing," I muttered, kissing her arm that was closest to me.

Her head rested against my shoulder and she leaned into me, I turned my head and kissed her lightly on the forehead then rested my head against hers. Her hand boldly reached out and she wrapped her fist around my still condom covered cock. I couldn't suppress a groan. She stroked me for a few moments then pulled the wasted rubber off, tossing it away.

Her body moved too quickly for me to notice in my dazed stupor. I did notice the feeling of her lips wrapping around me. Again, it was impossible to suppress a groan. I knew there was no point in telling her she didn't have to or that I was fine, because she was going to do what she wanted to do and it really felt too good to say anything.

I kept my eyes on every movement she made as she slid her tongue from my head to my balls, wrapped her lips around the top and went down until I hit her throat, then swirled her tongue around my head. She did that, and everything in between. The sucking sounds she made when she'd pop off of me were outstanding. I was disappointed when she quit.

She brought her mouth up to mine and without a second thought, I kissed her, tongue and all. Her hand moved between us and she started stroking me again. Again, no second thought. I hummed happily into her mouth. Then before I could even comprehend what the hell had happened, I was trapped in hot heat and wetness. Bella stared at me apprehensively while I froze with shock.

"What the hell did you just do?" I gasped out.

"I want us to do it like this, nothing between us."

I stared incredulously. "Jesus Christ, are you thinking clearly? God, what if I…? We can't. No, no. Absolutely not."

I think she recognized as much as I did that I was trying to convince myself. She was cheating again, but there were much higher stakes this time.

With her hand on my shoulder, she rolled, bringing me with her. "Pull out if you have to, go as slow as you have to, stop if you have to, but I know I can give you what you want like this."

"You really overestimate my self-control, Bella. The second you start cumming, I'm going to fucking explode and you're going to end up pregnant. This is stupid." And I couldn't bring myself to stop it or pull out, despite every ounce of logic.

"I trust you."

Of course she fucking trusted me. Her legs were wrapped around my hips and she was slowly grinding against me, working me with her soft inner muscles. Nothing between us, just us. That fact was glaringly fucking obvious.

"This is fucking stupid," I said again, and as I started to pull out, she allowed me. When I started to push back in, she moaned.

I was on my knees and her ass was off the bed, her legs bent behind my ass. I gently grasped one of her hips and slid my other hand down her stomach, pressing my thumb between her folds and finding her clit. She moaned again as I moved in and out of her, this time rubbing her clit.

This without a condom bullshit would be the death of me. It felt unreal. No, opposite of that. It felt unbelievably real. Nothing between us, just us, all the fucking way. The risk was scaring the shit out of me. I think Bella was enjoying taking a risk. A fucking huge one. Fucking stupid mistake, but it was too late to turn back now.

I had to stop a few times, and she would freeze when I did. She tried to be completely still but couldn't stop her pussy from twitching and she couldn't help that her heartbeat reverberated deep inside of her. I came close a couple times to completely losing it, but I managed to scare the urge off.

Completely off the wall unexpectedly, Bella arched high off the bed and dug her fingers into my arms. She bucked hard into me with her hips and I groaned as she clamped onto me.

"God, Edward, I'm cumming, I'm cumming."

Of course she'd fucking scream that at me now, when I was doing everything in my power to hold back. Halfway through her orgasm, it all became too real. All the wetness right on my skin and the power of her pussy spasming on me. I couldn't take it anymore. With a loud groan, I pulled out of her and just barely made it to her stomach, where I emptied a large load.

I'm fairly sure we both passed out because the next thing I remembered was the sound of Bella's stomach growling and the room being pitch black.



Purgatory: Senior Year - Chapter 32

All recognized characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. No copyright infringement intended.

This chapter has been beta'd by the ever amazing: Strae


I lied in bed, trying to clear my thoughts with loud music, but it didn't work. My dad even broaching the subject of sex toys with me was going to scar me for life.

"Here son," said my father in my head, "let me help you pick one out." He pointed to different silver, black, and pink colored contraptions on the computer screen, shopping an online adult store. "Oh, this one! Your mother loves it."

"Gahhh!" I growled, tossing my iPod aside. I grabbed my cell phone like an addict for his crack pipe. Fingers shaking, I found Bella on the top of the list and called. I felt like my brain was going to rattle loose of my skull with every ring.

"Hello?" Something made a small crashing sound in the distance and Bella cussed under her breath.

I sighed, because I should have known. "You're busy, aren't you?"

"A little bit, yeah. You okay? You sound a little odd." I could tell I had her undivided attention in that moment. I could almost see the concern on her face as she grasped the phone in her hand, instead of flattening it halfheartedly between her shoulder and her ear.

"I just need to talk for a few minutes. Just say something really distracting and I'll be okay." For now.

"I miss you," she breathed quietly into the phone.

I sighed deeper and relaxed back into my pillows. Just that voice helped, but knowing she missed me, it's all I could think about then. "I miss you too."

"I love you."

Even better. "I love you too."

"I've been thinking about you," she whispered in a very distracting tone of voice.

"Yeah?"

"Mm-hmm."

"I really wish I was there. Or you were here, actually. I'd fill up the Jacuzzi tub and give you a bubble bath."

"That sounds really nice, but I don't care where we were, as long as I was with you it'd be really nice."

"How are you feeling?"

"Edward," she said in an exasperated tone. "You watched me all day today, I think you know how I'm feeling better than I do."

"I'm just worried I hurt you more than you are letting on."

"I'm fine. More than fine, actually. But I have to go now. I'll call you back in a little while, I promise."

"Okay," I sighed. I had a feeling my new nickname was going to be Clingy, or Cling-On, or Clinger.

"I love you. I'll talk to you soon."

"Love you too. Bye."

"Bye."

How long 'a little while' would be was the issue. I hated the waiting game, or maybe I just lacked patience, I didn't know. All I knew was that I wanted to be with Bella more than anything in the world. Right now and forever. Charlie complicated everything. I couldn't see Bella tonight, I hardly got to see her at school, I couldn't spend the night with her, weekends would always be screwed up because of stupid Newton and that fucking shop. We'd never have time with just each other.

And we desperately needed time with just each other. Not just for sex either, because that actually wasn't all I thought about. I want to hold her, to kiss her deeply, and tell her how much I loved her, not just hug her, give her a chaste peck, and whisper that I loved her into her ear.

Then there was the sex issue. I didn't have a problem jumping into the shower and jerking one out. Bella, on the other hand, just didn't have it in her to please herself the way she should. I needed to be there to make sure her frustration didn't make her spontaneously combust. Sex was a natural, human need, and fuck we both really needed it.

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It was a week and a half before I finally got my much needed alone time with Bella, along with a cold spurt of weather. Her little mittens, furry boots, and puffy coat made me smile. A whole week and a half though, I'd only seen her in passing. I couldn't even drive her to and from school anymore.

She was no longer my tutor, because we couldn't concentrate. I was no longer her ride to and from school, because we couldn't concentrate. So maybe I got a bit handsy once or twice, I was feeling frisky, couldn't hardly cut me off for that. I asked for a little trust. She said she trusted me, but didn't trust herself, that I drove her crazy, she couldn't focus or even think when I was being, well, me. I did as she asked, grudgingly. She promised me time, we'd think of something. She promised that it wouldn't always be this way; fighting for a second alone, stealing kisses in shadowed corners, and copping tiny feels whenever absolutely possible.

A whole week and a half later, we got snowed in. Mom and Dad were stuck in Seattle. Charlie was busy with all the weather related accidents and injuries. School was closed. And Bella was on her way out to my place, with her giant rust bucket. I probably would have been safer going to get her in my two-wheel drive Volvo, but she insisted—and when Bella insists, there's just no pushing her!

Two hours. Two. Freaking. Hours. I was ready to just go looking for her already. Or call a search and rescue party because it was snowing again. Or call her father. I knew I was actually starting to panic when I considered that.

Two hours after she told me she'd see me soon, that old junker came around the final bend. I just about leaped off the patio. I seriously doubt that landing would have felt good though, so I took the icy stairs two at a time, meeting her as she opened her creaky door.

"Oh, thank God," I sighed, wrapping myself around her as tightly as possible.

"Your hair looks wild," she muttered, "and you look cold. Did you stand out here the whole time?" I ran my hand through my hair. "And do that?"

The hair was growing back at extreme speed. My habit was coming back and I'm sure the hair was standing up at full force after the last two hours of me pulling at it while I paced the deck.

"Let's just go inside before we can't find the house," I mumbled back at her, looking up at the huge, fast falling flakes.

I held her hand while we walked up to the house and followed her up the slippery steps. Funny how coming down I managed to take them dangerously quickly and even at snail pace Bella managed to nearly kill herself three times. I'd catch her and she'd turn pretty shades of red.

I didn't consider how bad of an idea this was until we got in the house. Charlie was going to kill me. Seriously. Not only did I already endanger her, but if she tried to leave in this ever worsening weather, she'd be put in even more danger and likely end up in the ditch or worse. Which meant she'd have to stay here, and Charlie was going to kill me for that, after he already killed me for not talking Bella out of coming.

Yet, all I could think was 'reunited and it feels so good.' I shucked my coat and hung it up while Bella kicked her wet boots off. We traded places and she hung her coat next to mine while I tossed my boots next to hers. It felt familiar and right and perfectly fitting.

I snaked my arm around her waist and pulled her body flush with mine. "I missed you," I cooed before pressing my lips to hers. Her warm hands covered my checks as she held my face.

"You're so cold," she said as she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled herself closer to me.

I rubbed my hands up and down over the back of her blue sweater then rested my hands right on her full ass cheeks. "You're so warm," I said back, rubbing my cold nose against her cute little button one then kissing her full, inviting lips again.

With her arms already around my neck and my hands perfectly placed on her butt, I decided it would just be easier to pick her up than bend, so I did. I walked, still kissing her in the direction of the kitchen and forced myself to remain gentlemanly, though I really didn't want to. With a final, slightly rough and greedy kiss, I pulled away from her, setting her down on the countertop.

"Are you hungry?" I asked her. I know I was. Starving. Not for food, but I'd sure give that a fucking try and pretend that it might be satisfying enough.

She shrugged her perfect little shoulders and my eyes lingered on her breasts as they moved with her. That's when I noticed just how nice her sweater was. Maybe nice wasn't the word I was looking for. It was v-necked and that perfect blue and God did I get a little breathless taking in the whole picture. I could feed her, then I could fuck her. Not gentlemanly! I certainly never claimed to be no Prince Fucking Charming. Maybe a Charming Fucking Prince, but not the other way around.

"What do you want?" I asked her, and hoped that husky tone wasn't as perceptible as it sounded to me.

I think it must have been, because she bit her lip lightly then leaned toward me, just begging to be kissed again, and fucked. I had to deny it, I had to turn away because I was all to willing to just do it, right here, without feeding her first. I opened the fridge and grabbed the first thing that registered, which just happened to be leftover lasagna. Somehow I was able to get that on plates and microwaved without something exploding, and I meant that quite literally.

I was lucky the lasagna was fucking delicious or Mom's expensive center piece would have gotten destroyed in my path of sexual destruction. I was beginning to think I was possessed, it just didn't seem normal, but I decided that sex with Bella was a bit like a drug. You just needed it in that way; it was addicting, fulfilling, utterly fucking breathtakingly amazing, life without it didn't feel right, and I'd do anything to get that high.

So I waited. I ate and I watched and I waited until she was finished and I waited some more because I'd do anything, and waiting for her to be ready was one of those things. I continued to try for gentlemanly as I took our plates to the dishwasher and she followed me there. When I turned around, she reached for my head and knotted her fingers into my hair and pulled my lips to hers. I groaned as her mouth pressed against mine and her tongue pushed its way between my lips. She molded her body to me, and I wanted nothing more than to find a surface to push her against in hopes of getting closer.

I picked her up again. That fantasy I'd been having for a week and a half flashed in my brain and I started towards the huge bathroom with the Jacuzzi tub. As bad as I wanted to have her between my sheets again, bathing her had toyed with my mind and I couldn't push away the chance. I wanted to play with Bella in a bubble bath.

I lowered her down and her feet patted lightly when they met the cold tile floor. I turned the water on to fill the tub and pressed the magic Jacuzzi button that made bubbles. When I turned back to her, she was biting her lip impatiently, or nervously, or just doing it to drive me even fucking crazier. I smiled at her because I couldn't wait to peel that perfect sweater off.

The sound of the rushing water combined with everything else felt like a fantasy come true as my skin sparked from her touch. She tried to grab my shirt to pull it off, but I didn't let her. I very slowly pulled hers off instead. Her bra was black today and the way her pale breasts filled it out made me groan a little bit, it was so unbelievably fucking sexy. I knew the underwear would be black too and I just had to see them immediately. Ever so slowly, I lowered her pants off her hips. I ended up kneeling and the black bikini style panties looked just as perfect as her bra. In desperate need of some contact, I tried to take it slow and ended up having a small make out session with her bellybutton which she thoroughly seemed to enjoy by moaning and wrapping her fingers in my hair again.

The tub was full enough that I couldn't delay anymore. With purpose, I removed her underwear. The goddamn bra and its mal-fucking-functioning back clasp pissed me off a bit more than it should have, but Bella was patient with her hands on my chest, staring at me with every ounce of love, respect, trust, and all kinds of lust in her eyes. Finally it fell to the floor. I didn't think it was possible for my breathing to get any shallower, but I was wrong.

After gulping down many feelings, much air, and excessive amounts of saliva, I guided her to the tub only to receive a questioning look. She reached for my shirt again, and didn't seem pleased to be stopped, again.

I pulled her naked body to my completely clothed one and kissed her with every bit of passion I was feeling, which meant the kiss was rough and hot. I kissed along her jaw to her ear and gently bit down on her lobe before whispering to her, "Bella, the second my clothes come off, I'm going to need to be inside of you, so just let me have this."

With a sharp intake of breath and no objections, she let me have it. I got to play with bubbles and skin. Bella seemed so oddly relaxed yet turned on, I couldn't decide if she wanted to take a nap or fuck my brains out. My hands were everywhere they could be feeling her skin under the water. I watched her and loved that I had her naked in the bubbles and couldn't get enough of the look on her face as I played.

I don't know how long it had been, but as my fingers raked over an apparently responsive part of her upper thigh, her wet hands fisted into my shirt and she pulled me to her. She pulled me so hard and I wasn't expecting it and I didn't really care because I wanted to kiss her. But I missed the edge of the tub with my hand and ended up on top of her in the water. I was plastered against her, soaking wet and covered in bubbles. God, did I fucking love it.

Her tongue tasted divine rubbing against mine and her lips felt as soft as ever. Her breasts were pressed tight against my chest and her nipples were hard among all the soft flesh. Bella was ready for it right there in the bathtub as she tried to peel my clinging shirt off of me. A brief moment of pure lust washed over me as I remembered a particular fantasy where Bella had her legs flung over the sides of the tub and the water sloshed noisily as we grunted against each others mouths. I pushed it away and pushed myself away from the tub and Bella as I had no other options. She followed quickly, dripping wet and determined.

She pushed me back roughly against the bathroom counter and grabbed my shirt with both hands. She had her fists tight into my shirt and I wouldn't have been able to stop her if I tried. She pulled hard until the shirt was over my head and she dropped it with a loud splat onto the floor. Her hands grabbed the front of my jeans, the button flew open and the zipper went down. My hips lurched towards her as she dropped my pants to the floor, too. I was already panting when she tried to go for my underwear. I grabbed her wrists quickly and wrapped them up around my neck as I pressed our bodies together again and kissed her like my life depended on it.

It was all tongues, and lips, and teeth, and chest on chest until I had her steered into my bedroom. She moaned loudly into my mouth when I fell with her onto my bed. Her legs wrapped up around my hips and she arched her core up to rub against me. She growled when she encountered fabric, not skin.

Hastily, I unraveled our bodies from each other. While getting rid of my underwear, I reached between the mattress and box spring and pulled out the amazing box of sex. Yes, the box was sex. That was my logic. The box was sex because without it, there was none. Logic. If only the wrappers weren't so goddamn tricky. It forced me to concentrate on something other than my throbbing erection and I had to send a quick telepathic kudos to the manufacturers. I carefully extracted the condom and rolled it onto myself.

I quickly began wishing I'd have spent the previous two hours of waiting for Bella jerking off in preparation for this. Which reminded me that I had to give Bella an amazing orgasm before I blew my load and that wasn't going to be accomplished by the still-painful-for-her intercourse.

I dropped to my knees and palmed her thighs, pulling her to the edge of the bed. Her fingers wrapped into my hair and I grinned at her eagerness, until I was being pulled past my desired location. I gently grasped her wrists.

"Edward," she begged, "I need you. I need you now, please."

I trembled all over. I wanted like nothing else to give her exactly what she asked for, but it wouldn't be everything her lust-hazed brain had it made out to be, so I forced myself to wait because it was for her.

I kissed her thigh with an open mouth, then whispered against her skin, "Bella, I need to calm down. I promise I'll give you what you need, just hold on a little bit longer."

She made a sound between a sigh and a groan and relaxed back into the bed. I kissed her thigh again and up, up to her hip and over her stomach and to her perfect breasts. Her fingers came lightly to my hair as I licked around her globes and over her hard nipples. I kissed higher to her neck and couldn't resist a stop at her lips. I was lost in the kiss and I didn't feel her move until her hands were wrapped around my aching shaft.

I groaned defeatedly into her mouth. I couldn't push her away again because I ached and she'd make it all better. My condom covered cock jumped against her palm and she stroked along me, all purpose and intent. This was the exact opposite of what was suppose to be happening. Somehow, I remembered that her cumming was my priority and navigated my fingers to between her thighs. She made sounds right along with me as I worked my finger inside of her tight, wet opening. We found a good rhythm with her pumping along my length and my finger slipping in and out of her while my thumb nudged against her clit.

I added a second finger quickly, hoping she'd like that. She did. As tight as she was, I thought it might be uncomfortable, but she was relaxed and the second finger slid right in with the first, stretching her. Her hips rocked and she aided my search of her spot and when I found it, I used it. She was writhing and gasping before me and that was my goal. When she clenched down on me and started spasming around my fingers, I felt my own spasm start. She came around my fingers and I came into her hand. We panted and calmed and I rested on top of her.

Slowly, she started kissing my neck and I knew she was ready. Just before I started to pull away her lips rested at my ear and she breathed huskily into it, "Make love to me, fuck me, I need you. I need you in me."

If I needed convincing, those were the words that did it.

I quickly striped off the soiled condom and replaced it with a new one, after a painstaking battle with another foil wrapper. As I settled myself between her thighs, I remembered the fact that her being on top may be easier, so I rolled.

She leaned up, and the surprise wasn't momentary. She stared at me, shocked. She sat up slowly and my hands eagerly gripped her hips. I decided that was too firm of a stand with the likelihood of literally taking hold by grabbing her hips, so I moved my hands up her sides. I could aid from here if necessary, but couldn't get quite as rambunctious, hopefully.

She remained still. "I-I-I don't know what to do," she stuttered.

I smiled lazily up at her. "Do whatever feels good," I said, stroking her stomach lightly and watching her eyes fluttered closed.

She shifted slowly and everything lined into place. Sitting above me, I watched her take one more questioning look at me before pressing her hips down onto me. Her brow wrinkled in what I assumed was a combination of concentration and pain. I forced myself to look away. I had to trust her to stop if it was too much. I watched our bodies coming together.

So slowly, her hips sank lower and she enveloped me into her inviting heat. Like before, the first half seemed to be the hardest part. She faltered and pressed on a few times before sitting completely against me. I watched as she rocked her hips experimentally. I groaned, feeling her tight, hot walls pressing against me in whole new ways. She leaned forward and rested her hand flat on my chest. My eyes fluttered closed as she rocked again and I opened them to see her face. A stab of guilt hit my gut when I could still see more pain than anything etched into her features. Then she lifted her body some and the cool air hit my wet, hot shaft and I shuddered.

She sat back down and I moaned at the sultry tight feel. She did it again, lifting up slightly higher then sinking back down. Then again, rotating her hips slightly before going back up again. And her hand curled into my chest slightly, biting me with her fingernails and a whisper of a moan came out of her lips. I watched as she moved up and down and rocked on me.

It dawned on me, she was fucking me. I moaned so loud I actually scared her a little bit. She looked worried, like she'd hurt me. She froze and my fingers twitched with the need to grab her hips and make her fuck me harder. I didn't trust myself to touch her anymore, so I moved them to the bed. When she moved again, they twisted around that comforter with purpose.

It started over again from there. The slow up and down and the rocking and my balls were churning up a storm but I could see the pleasure just ghosting forward, pushing the pain aside slowly so I held back with everything I had.

Her brow wrinkled again and she stopped, leaning back up. It started over again, slow up and down. And it felt completely different again and I wondered if she was trying to drive me fucking insane. But the ghost of pleasure was gone and the pleasure was solidified. I could see just hints of pain and plenty of pleasure as her hips built intensity. As she moved faster, she rose up in the middle of a rocking motion and her head rolled back into a loud moan.

I let my hands have her hips. I helped her find that motion again, and again, and again, and I'll be damned if she wasn't moaning just as much as I was. Fucking everything felt good to me and finding something that felt good to her gave me enough of a clear head to take hold of her hips. Her fingers wrapped around my wrists and I continued to help her.

She was fucking me and her tits were bouncing and it was all just too fucking much with her loud moaning and gasping. I couldn't take another second and I exploded deep inside of her. She felt it and stopped, just sitting down on top of me and feeling me cumming inside of her. My hips pushed up into her as gently as I could manage and she rocked a few times until the final sparks died away.

I realized that I didn't know. I hated myself for having to ask. "Did you?"

My heart broke a little bit when she shook her head and slowly raised herself off of me. She saw. "But you were amazing," she said.

She removed the used condom for me this time and discarded it in the trash. She moved off to my side slightly and lied down, her head on my shoulder and her body pressed up against me, her arm and leg possessively laid across me.

"You were amazing," she said again, and it made me hate myself even more, even though I knew this would happen. I still hated it. "Edward, look at me." I didn't want to, because I knew she would convince me of the stupid fact that she did actually think I was amazing, but I couldn't deny her anything so I looked at her. I looked at her and I let her convince me that I was amazing and I let her kiss me.

And when she kissed me, I felt her thigh slide along my length and I remembered that we were snowed in. We were snowed in and alone, indefinitely.